journalist

Talking with myself and my mother recently, I discovered what I want the most out of life. When I feel fulfilled vs when I feel empty and dissatisfied come from the same thing; the same word:

Community.

I love community. I love having a community and feeling secure in the community.

I want to start creating communities. In the past I waited to be invited in a community; I waited to enter a community that I didn't have responsibility to create. 

I'll feel most fulfilled when I'm creating a community and participating in a community.

This brings me to what I want. What I want to start working on so it doesn't go away, because I had a dream that felt this good before and I let it go away. I don't want it anymore.

I want to be a journalist. I want to be a journalist without necessarily going back to journalism school. I want to interview inspiring women, podcast release, and write on a blog. This blog? I don't know. Probably not. I'll want to buy a website, purchase a domain. I'll do an Instagram like humans of NY. 

I think my issue before was I listed a bunch of topics I wanted to write about. When really, it's women and people that I want to write about. I love people. I think they're fascinating. I think they're the reason we exist - to help and be helped by other people. Life is beautiful. I want to live it AND interview other people about it. 

The first things I want to be doing to work toward this goal :

• develop listening skills
• reflective listening
• focus on the person's words, not my response 
• network with a few people

I feel like I'd also like to work toward writing my own experience. Interviewing myself. How funny, that's an idea! Maybe I'll interview myself on my podcast now and then.

Brand. Branding. Personal and space branding.

The other thing- I don't want to speak negatively about others. What Susie Says of Sally says more of Susie than of Sally. One of my favorite quotes. And truth.

Work on self love, confidence, and compassion. All of this feels good. 

two babies later

18 months... that's long enough for someone to have 2 babies. (I haven't done that, by the way, no cigar).
I want to start something; a business? A podcast? Both? I think I want to be a journalist. I don't want to go back to school, but I want to write and I want to get stories and I want to connect with people.
List of Podcasts I'm listening to:

• No Limits With Rebecca Jarvis: My favorite one. She is a broadcast journalist interviewing women "at the top of their game". She interviews so well, she asks amazing questions, and the stories are digestible and easy to relate to.
• Munchin with Moguls: a local pocasts interviewing "moguls" which turns out to be women with large instagram followings. It's very interesting and compelling because it is dripping in the culture I am immersed in. I've contacted her to ask if I can help her work on the podcast
• 30 for 30 by ESPN: I love sports, I love sports stories. There is emotion and struggle and victory and defeat and there's always a winner and a loser in a world that doesn't always give me that in clear terms. 

Those 3 are my tops right now (and to be honest, haven't listened to 30 for 30, but it trust it enough to recommend it anyway). 

Watching Utah Jazz Summer League, gotta jet.